Customer Service Dictionary

1. 6-8 weeks – you better pray that it doesn’t get sent to Heromex, spend three months there, and still come back broken
2. Let me connect you to her voicemail – The supervisor never answers her VM. You’re just going to end up talking to me again.
3. We’ll replace your product – We never have the right model in stock. We really mean we’ll find something cheaper and send that to you.
4. Our overseas manufacturer – China
5. I’ll look into this and see what I can do – You’re screwed
6. There were 1000 abandoned calls – there were 10
7. Company is monitoring the calls – Billy printed reports
8. We’re going to have a meeting at 5:20 – We’ll never have the meeting. We just want to scare you
9. Handle your customers – Lie, lie, lie, lie and make excuses.

War & Depression

My country, the United States of America, decided to go to war, and now we are paying the price. It seems to me, my country is making a personal issue a world-wide affair. Do people NOT understand that we are suffering a depression because of war? Do they not know that our oil prices are high because the people that control that commodity are bitter with us? The Europeans are suffering, as well. I do not hear much about other countries suffering, though. Maybe it is because my country is ethno-centric. Who knows? But, what I DO know is that we are now paying the price of an action that was committed almost a decade ago.

 

Maybe it was what was wanted from the enemy. They knew where to hit, and they know how we would respond. Maybe we should have done something better to have overcome the situation we are all in now. But no, the United States’ President Bush decided to send troops and “take care of business” on the other side of the globe.

 

The United States will NEVER appease those that we call an enemy and neither will they give in to those that seemingly have more power in certain arenas. It will never happen. Take it as a good thing, or a bad thing. The point is, Imperialism is a thing of the past. Or, maybe the answer is having better leaders in place, instead of having leaders that take on personal agendas. President Bush made a mistake and now the citizens of the United States are paying for those mistakes, while the rich get richer and the poor get poorer.

A Customer Service Representative Does Not Care About Your Money

When you buy a watch, it does not automatically come sized for your wrist. It comes at a standard length. Reason being: peoples’ wrist sizes can vary from person to person. It is not my responsibility, and neither the company I work, to make each watch individually sized. Is it really that difficult to understand that a watch comes with plenty of “girth” to give way for big people? I apologize for those out there that have an enormous wrist size. And actually, I receive plenty of phone calls every day from people that COMPLAIN about how the bands on our watches come incredibly too small for their wrist.

 

I’d like to also mention, saying that you “are just going to have to send it back” doesn’t mean anything to me. A customer service representative does not give two cents about what a consumer does with the product they have just purchased. A customer service representative does not care about what you do with your money and neither do they care about how much a person spends on the company’s products. Yes, a consumer is very important in the sense that they do have buying power and they can buy anything from anywhere. Honestly, though, a customer service representative is not paid to “care” about how someone is spending their money. They are paid to assist a customer in handling and using their product. They are there to give the consumer of a company’s product help on how to use it. Again, a customer service representative does not particularly care if you are going to send back a product for a refund. Their paycheck is not affected by such returns. The only person that suffers from such “returns” by a consumer exercising their buying power is the vendor that sold the product in the first place. That’s not to say that the creator of the product does not suffer. Of course they do. But, they only suffer if consumers return said product in mass quantities. Then the creator of the product loses a client due to bad workmanship.

 

Customer Service does not care about money. Plain & simple.

The Light of My Life

Let me introduce my wonderful girlfriend. We met during the holidays of 2007 when she started working at the coffee shop I was a boss at. It turned out that we shared a lot of the same interests and, not to mention, there was a lot of unspoken chemistry between the both of us. “Don’t you feel like you’re not an alien anymore?” referring to the fact that we’re both of the same ethnicity. That caught my attention! After that small conversational confrontation, we parted ways and did whatever it is that we did in our days.

She’s the best person I could be living my life with. Albeit that we’re both young, none of that stuff matters considering that we are both in search of the same things out of life.

Words aren’t enough to begin describing who she is or how she is. She’s the light of my life and she has what I need & want: someone to push me into the greatness and to instill in me the confidence that is needed to always achieve the best out of life. “Excuse me, babydoll, but I like your style,” as said by the rapper Akrobatik.

She’s as funny as a stand-up comic high on herb, and as serious as a heart-attack. I can easily say that no other female can compare to what my honey is, but I’m not one to put other females down (at least the genuine ones!).

This pretty lady in my life is my sunshine all day-everyday.

“I’m a movement by myself, but a force when we’re together,” as said by Fabolous the rapper.

 

“When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be her’s forever.”

Words of Advice – Getting Along

get along with each other in this world and in this lifetime. at the end of the day.. war brings heartache. strife brings pain and arguments bring nothing. choose your battles wisely. you may think that you are winning and that at the end of the day everything is ok. but it isn’t. someone out there is being affected by the turmoil. drama brings nothing. it brings a lot of nothing. who wants nothing in this world? this world is too precious to bring nothing to the table.

i want happiness. i want peace. i want serenity. i do not like negative words nor negativity. i do everything i can to dispel that from my life. i do not have time for petty & childish games from anyone. i have too many great things to accomplish to have people around me mess up my tranquility.

word of advice.. get along. if no one gets along.. then leave me be. i would much rather just be left alone in my peaceful existence than have people around me sh*t all over it.

word of advice.. get along. things are not gonna change. if you do not start to get along, people will notice and not want anything to do with you. trust me.

word of advice.. get along. if you don’t start to get along and start treating each other as people instead of animals.. then you will never get the things in life that you want the most. life is not about a power trip, nor a play. it’s not like that at all.

MY WORDS OF ADVICE: GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER AND THERE SHALL BE PEACE, LOVE, UNITY & RESPECT [FOR ONE ANOTHER]

Customer Voices

Another day at the office! Customer service at this company is pretty decent. Mornings are full of online events that consist of reading The New York Times, MSNBC.com, and tabloids. Sometimes people call early in the morning and request to register a warranty for their watch. Other times they call in wanting to complain about how the watch they just bought from one of our biggest vendors arrived to them in a damaged package.

 

Is it my company’s fault that the product the customer purchases from the vendor arrives damaged? No, it isn’t. The vendor that buys our product does some ungodly things to them. At some point, their quality assurance employees bitterly manhandle the merchandise and ship it out the customer. The customer then receives it, calls my company, airs their frustrations out on us, and then, ultimately, they return it to the vendor they bought it from. During that process, who knows if they bitterly manhandle the product they had just bought. They probably drop the product or scratch it up and return it to the vendor like that.

 

What does the vendor do? They give it to their quality assurance employee who, in turn, inspects the product and OKs the product to be sellable again. The vendor then puts it on the shelf again and waits for another customer to buy the product. Of course, as soon as the customer receives the product they requested, they bitterly call my company and complain that they received it in a horrible condition and that they expected better product presentation from my company.

 

It’s a vicious cycle! It’s been like this for quite some time and it is going to take a lot of time and effort to correct the errors that the vendor is making. This will end up hurting my company’s image and no one will really trust the company again.

 

Another question should also be asked, “Does my company even care?”

"Balance"

Written on Thursday, May 15, 2008 at 6:58pm

it’s difficult keeping this in balance. easily typed.. easily read.. & easily said.

i’m having a hard time admitting that keeping things afloat is easy. it can get hard at times, and there are other moments where i just want to crawl in a hole and disappear for a good moment or two (not death). but that’s immature and childish.
i try and confront problems as they arise and i try to make sure i keep my cool. it’s difficult. some times i just want to say fuck it all. and no.. it’s not any relationship issues. it’s more like… everything.

but saying “fuck it all” is negative and just plain wrong. why throw everything away that was given to me? i want to feel accomplished and happy at the end of it all. and.. the only way in doing so is by tackling all those fears and speedbumps with tenacity and patience.

love goes a long way. and.. love is not easy. love takes time and a lot of strength. love is earned. that’s why there are people out there that like to sleep around and not commit. they just don’t want to deal with all the complicated-ness that comes with loving another person. loving another person means you accept them for who they are and you care more about them than you do yourself (hope that made sense).

i write these things for myself. not for anyone. i write these things so that one day.. when i look back at the struggles that i had to endure to achieve blissful happiness.. i can remind myself that it wasn’t given to me easily. in all actuality.. it was given to me in the hopes that i might be able to handle everything. i like reading past things and reminding myself that not everything is easy.. every thing comes fantastic. it’s just up to you to make sure it stays that way.

writing frees my soul. i can read and it’s like i’m reading my inner-most thoughts. i like it.

so.. don’t knock my hustle and if you are… leave me be. now i’m ranting. so good-bye/

Unforeseen Things Happen

Written on Thursday, March 20, 2008 at 7:04pm

things that cannot be controlled happen to everyone. no matter what religion, beliefs, values, or goodness someone holds.. things just happen. it’s life. aka.. reality. don’t chalk it up to karma.. it’s not karma. and if it is karma.. then you should know what bad things you have been doing in the past. aside from that, though.. things just happen. the best you can do is just take it in stride.. let things be.. and handle them. no point in letting the spilled milk sour your day. it spilled.. accept it.. clean it up.. and drink another cup.
have fun.. live life.. and don’t go thinking that just because you do plenty of good things it means that you should be exempt from the unpredictable. the best that can happen… we bounce back stronger than ever.
enjoy*

sustenance for the mind

Written on Monday, March 17, 2008 at 10:42am

Here are some words that are shared and are up for grabs and can be used as sustenance for the mind.

life is about living, obviously. it’s more than likely that it is your life. although, there are lives out there that are governed by an authority. it can be a positive one.. or a negative one. for those that are under a lot of negativity.. the best that can be done is the sharing of some positive vibes that can hopefully make their lives a bit lovelier. for those that are under the bless-ed goodness of a pleasant life.. the best that can be done BY THEM is the sharing of good vibes so that others around them can prosper and grow as individuals to lead a prosperous life.
it’s disheartening seeing others at a disadvantage. it pains seeing a car broken down on the highway. as ugly as it may seem.. and as mis-taken-care-of as it may be seen.. they are people, too. no one likes to be put in situations where we are helpless. snide comments about their physical state of being is uncalled for.. and.. honestly.. it’s not a place where they can be judged. the judging that should be taking place is when negative situations arise before our eyes. that is when the first stone should be cast. others do not know what goes on in the daily lives of others. we just see.. but nothing is known.
even when everything is known to eye and to the mind.. it still does not give the right for judgement to take place. plain and simple.. we are not god.. A god.. a superior being.. or anything that powerful. we are human beings. if anything.. sad to say (if you want to be pissy about it).. we need to concern ourselves with our own personal business and take care of those that we genuinely love.
the funny thing is though.. a genuine person will also see the hate and despair that surrounds them on a day to day basis. and.. with their generosity and sincerity.. they will take it up themselves to see that everyone.. regardless of race, age, sex, orientation, WHATEVER.. is at the very least… HAPPY.

Striving for Accomplishment

Written on Tuesday, April 15, 2008

no matter how hard life may be.. someone will always be there to catch you. the only thing that holds you back are your actions. the golden rule. live it to the fullest. just like carpe diem. do something shady.. something will mess up your flow and it all goes down the drain. do good… and you will be rewarded with all the riches you have ever wanted.

karma will always prevail*

Written on Wednesday, April 30, 2008

it’s a bit difficult to strive for achievement and actually be successful. it takes a lot of risk and courage to jump into the unknown and THINK that you are going to come out alive. all you can really do is hope for the best and wish that you make it. it’s either hit or miss. for those times that you miss.. just pick it up and do it all over again. don’t complain. more times than not.. you’re in a position that others envy.

it seems that a lof of people are not satisfied with their lives. they are always wishing that they were in the other person’s shoes and/or living another life. take control of what is your’s! no point in dreading the unattainable and wishing that something that does not belong to you was your’s. there’s no use. you were given that life for a reason. either you messed it all up for yourself.. or you earned it. but you were not given that life for no plain reason. spiritual person or not… everyone makes life what it is.. not a creator.

MATURE CONTENT – "The Ghost of Christmas Past"

I’d like to preface this blog with a few comments. The following words come from the past. They illustrate tumultuous periods of my life where I was still young and in search of spirituality, good friends and decent guidance.

For the most part, I have all those things now. The following tidbits are ones that I like to look back on and be remembered that life will always be an uphill battle and to make the most of it.

At the end of the day.. life is what you make it. So make it the best you can.. CARPE DIEM!

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DISCLAIMER: Please be advised that the following content is mature in language. It has been left unaltered and uncensored to promote free-thinking and individuality. Thank you for understanding!

Saturday, March 15, 2003

-the best things on earth are in your dreams.. you can always depend on them to take you anywhere you desire and get anything you want.

-always forgive and forget. it’s never good to always be walkin’ around w/ a stick halfway up your ass just cuz of some stupid drama.

-high school don’t matter.. but cutting class does. i leave that up to you to interpret and think about.

-everything in moderation.. too much of something will always f*ck w/ your head.. it ain’t good for the soul!!

-always speak what’s on your mind. just cuz people can’t handle the truth sometimes.. doesn’t mean that you should censor yourself. if they don’t like what they hear.. they can always cover their damn ears and look away. for all you know.. everyone might agree w/ you.. they’re just afraid to speak up for some stupid reason.

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iono where the inspiration came for this one. i’m sure i didn’t write it. but anywaise… mucho credits to the creative writer of this piece. i am just sharing this with the world.

//the pros & the cons//

I’ve never been so happy; I’ve never been so depressed.
I’ve never felt so forsaken; I’ve never been so blessed.
I’ve never been so confused; things have never been so clear.
Friends have never been so distant; they’ve never been so near.
I’ve never been so discouraged; I’ve never been so full of hope.
I feel like I could go on forever; I’ve come to the end of my rope.
I’ve never had life so easy; I’ve never had it so tough.
Things have never been so smooth; they’ve never been so rough.
I’ve never traveled more valleys; I’ve never ascended so many peaks.
I’ve never met so many nice people; I’ve never met so many freaks.
I’ve never had so many ups; I’ve never had so many downs.
I’ve never worn so many smiles; I’ve never worn so many frowns.
I’ve never been so lonely; I’ve never had so many friends.
Man, I hope this is over soon; Shit, I hope this never ends.

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Tuesday, March 09, 2004

so.. this gas “crisis” is dee-you-em-dee. imma be soooooooo FUCKED when im drivin’ again. premium is like at 2.30 almost. damn.. this is gonna be one hard summer.

Thursday, February 05, 2004

i’m worried that i’ll end up as one of those assholes of an adult the older i get. they say that w/ age comes wisdom.. but there’s also conservatism. i wish i could keep a liberal state of mind my entire life.. but i know that’s impossible cuz the older you get.. the more conservative you become [goin' in circles, aye?] it worries me so much that i’ll act like a grown up. always worried about dumb shit like payin’ rent and keeping a job. i wanna just live life. i wanna be happy. i don’t want wanna worry about shit like that. i don’t wanna worry about if i’m bein’ a productive citizen or not. why can’t we just be happy? why can’t life just be simple? i’ve said this before.. and this is something i truely believe in a lot.. life is more enjoyable the simpler you make it. it’s the g*ddamn truth. [to me that is]. you don’t gotta believe it.. and i’m sure there are others out there that have many reasons as to why you should you become a fucking productive citizen in this hypocritical [sp?] nation.. but fuck it. it IS my life, ya know. i realize though that there ARE certain things that might make me sound like im just full of shit.. considering the the fact that i DO want lotsa cars. but that only stems from an obsession that who-knows-where it came from. but i mean.. it’s not like im askin’ for a lot. i just wanna live a normal.. simple life. i don’t want a big house in some nice neighborhood. i just want a place to call my own. a place where i can sleep, watch tv, eat, do whatever i please. and if that means livin’ outta a small studio.. then so be it. at least i’ll be happy right? damn straight. see.. that’s my philosophy. i dont’ no stupid complications that come from big business transactions. i mean.. i can easily go to the best school due to my parents money [yes they're rich and i can say that w/ confidence] but i choose not to. i’ve seen how money can corrupt a person. i’m scared to be corrupted by money. that’s a major fear of mine. that i’d choose money over friends and family. fuck that shit.. i’d trade all the money in the world to just being the happiest damn guy on the planet.

Friday, March 17, 2006

we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

so i think i have this issue with being forgotten. i don’t like it. it’s not nice. it makes me feel like shit. i don’t understand it. it’s mean. it’s rude. it’s gross. it’s sad. i hate it. what’s wrong with me? i may not have been the best of the best, but i know myself and i know for a fact that i’m not such a bad person. the best way i can put it.. i react to the environment. it’s just a button, for example. no need to yell. no need to be smart with me. why make such a big deal of it? what’s wrong with you? there are times when i just wanna cuss the shit outta you. only cuz you look down on me. you call me a BLANK for no reason now. you don’t know how i am in day-to-day life. you don’t know the good things i do for people. you don’t know the effort i’ve been putting in at school. at work. by reading all my goddamn books. by actually trying to do something with my life. all you see is a BLANK with no goals. the same ol’ idiot that just watches tv. that just goes out. that parties a bit different than you. am i not good enough to just even enjoy a conversation with the rest of you? do you despise me that much? you think i’m that stupid? or are you just thinking that you definitely are better than me. that you think that all my decisions are stupid ones and that i will never be able to reach the high goals that were expected for me. the ones that everyone thought i could get to. but no longer can. only because i chose to walk a different path. speak a different way. think a bit different. watch different tv shows. whats wrong with you? did you ever really take the time to get to know me? did you ever really “get” my whole persona? do you just judge me by the way i walk? or the things i say on the fone? do you even wanna bother yourself with talking to me? do you just put up with it b/c you’re my BLANK and because we’re “BLANK”? is all “just because”? with no explanation? i don’t appreciate you always talking down to me. and i mean always. you’re demeaner is insulting. jesus christ. i won’t ever understand though. and that makes me sad. that’s all i can say.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

trust has been my biggest issue lately. i’m slowly starting to realize that the trust among close friends is nothing compared to aquiantances. and.. it’s not like it’s “nothing”.. it’s more like.. it’s different. it’s a different type of trust. its been hard trusting certain people lately. some are fake.. some are cool. the fake ones are easy to spot. the genuine ones are even harder. those are the ones that take ages to build. it can be extremely hard maintain a relationship between another person that you barely know. it takes alotta fucked up shit for you to see that the other person is genuinely your friend.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

i get so frustrated sometimes. it’s not even funny. i can’t stand it. why are things so hard to do sometimes? what does it take to just go out and do something? to show some love? to show some appreciation? to just say hello? to just get your shit done? get your shit straight? what’s with this always having to prove shit? why can’t people just carpe diem? maybe it’s just peoples’ innate being inside of themselves that doesn’t allow them to just do it. it gets frustrating. it gets annoying. but who i am to say these things? it’s not like i’m some sort of genius that knows every motherfucking thing. i’m not some special guy that thinks they can have whatever it is they want. it ain’t even like that. all i fucking want is SIMPLICITY. everything seems to be complicated. maybe it’s me that complicates things, but.. who knows. i honestly don’t think it is.

the things i want in life seem to be too much to ask for at times. and at times i just wanna say F*CK IT ALL just leave this place and just start somewhere new. but.. that’s loser shit. quitters never prosper. they never achieve anything. so why should i quit? i hate quiting. but sometimes.. i’d rather just let things fall apart then just put more work into it because what’s the point of having that good thing when in the end… it’s just gonna fall apart? why put all that effort into things when you know in the end.. it ain’t gonna be worth shit? WHY? it’s like investing. why invest all that money into that company.. when you know ten years down the road they are just gonna go bankrupt. so.. should i just invest now.. and cash out when the going is good? these are the things that confuse. these are the things that i just can’t seem to get. why bother? i’m tired of being the type “it was fun while it lasted”. fuck that shit. i don’t want it. but everyone seems to be interested in something else. they always gotta be the one to show up others. and when it comes to being genuine… it seems to be like it doesn’t exist. i know what i’m capable of doing. but are others capable of doing the same? iono.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

so there’s this word that i’ve been thinking about lately.. ARROGANCE

should it really  matter what others think of you? why should your actions dictate how you present yourself to others? as long as the ones that matter and you care about aren’t affected and hurt then why should you care about how joeschmoe thinks about you? honestly.. i could give a fucking rat’s ass about some fuck on the street thinking they don’t like the comment i said to them or especially the way i carry myself.

i sincerely apologize for some of the hurtful things that i tend to do to strangers, but.. to be honest.. if you don’t know me for me.. then i don’t really care about how some no body views me as a day to day person. they’re actions and words don’t affect me or my lifestyle.

on the contrary.. the ones i docare about i pay close attention to and i do let their words and actions dictate the way i live my life. why? because they are the ones i pay close attention to and actually do care about. they’re words and the way they live their life has an affect on me. why? because if i do act like an arrogant prick towards… they will no longer have anything to do with me. they are ones that i hold their opinions on a golden pedestal. they are the ones that i seek advice from.

i’m sincerely sorry if i don’t pay attention to the average idiot. i just don’t care what others really think about me. if it doesn’t concern me.. who cares?

you should pay close attention to the ones that are in your life. those are the ones that matter. those are the opinions that should matter. the ones that come from people you see on a daily basis. the ones you interact with. the ones you seek to impress. if THEY always say you’re a fucking idiot… LISTEN TO THEM and change your ways. if not.. and it comes from some fucking retard on the street at some restaurant.. fuck ‘em. they don’t deal with you on a constant day to day basis. so fuck what they say and fuck what they think. not like you’re tryin’ to fuck them, right?

all in all.. take care of yourself and if you live life honestly.. then you shouldn’t have anything to worry about.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

you gotta go thru enormous amounts of bullshit to appreciate the most lovelyest of things. i’m sure you know why. if you don’t… you’re ignorant. i’m sorry. don’t ever regret your problems. they’re there for a reason. some strange reason. they’re there to help us endeavour the unknown that we’re gonna see later on in life. and it’s funny… you give people advice in the hopes that they’re gonna take it for what it’s worth. advice. but nope. it doesn’t get taken. it just gets added to their vast amount of useless banter that makes up their endless thoughts of bullshit. yes. it’s bullshit. you’re obviously given advice  for a reason. to help you out with a situation that you may be in. advice is only given to friends and people you care about. people that you wanna see succeed. advice and words of wisdom aren’t wasted on useless and stupid people. why? because they’re lost causes. and if advice and gold is given to useless people.. then it’s coming from a kindhearted person that only wants the best for people. so.. take what they say for face value and don’t think there are any secrets beneath those spoken words. cuz there are none. and if you decide to actually venture for yourself into the unknown knowing full well that what you are gonna encounter [no mights], and you DO encounter the bullshit.. don’t cry. why? cuz you were told.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

[I LOVE YOU] those words carry a lot of meaning. sometimes i stop to think if those words are real.. [or not]. and.. if they are real.. then it makes me happy knowing that they are freely said with no qualms as to what can happen if they are misused. but.. if they aren’t truly said, then why bother saying them? is it to see what kind of reaction the other is gonna get? or to test some type of foundation that is laying beneath?

Friday, May 18, 2007

?THESIS? FOR A GOOD BOOK

if you got something. don’t let it go. keep it until you can no longer keep it still. don’t kill it though. don’t try too hard. it’ll only damage everything. you gotta find a balance to make sure things are all good in the universe. if you try hard enough… maybe you’ll get it. if not.. fuck it. let it go and if it comes back…. then there you have it. until then…. DEAL WITH IT. but in a positive manner. what’s stupid you before from pursuing other ventures?

but.. if you really want it.. it’s understandable.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

negativity and happiness are pulling each other like no other. one tends to believe that there isn’t much to do in the world, while the other thinks that everything is grand and nice. both are in a constant battle and are always trying to achieve a balance.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

the chase. the thrill of the chase is so fucking great. i love the feeling. and, the longer it lasts, the greater it gets. it’s like a drug. well. not really. it’s just cool. and… the moment you catch up, either you’re happy or sad. disappointed is another good word. but, whatever. i like the thrill. funny thing, someone long time ago told me about the thrill. quite right. funny how it still stands true to this day.

Friday, April 27, 2007

art’s words of wisdom give me the motivation to achieve successes..

“To many individuals, love seems like something easy to find. Many believe love is found through time. They believe the longer you are with someone the more they will love you. And for some people that may be the case, but I personally disagree. Someone once told me that certain people remain together for convenience, and I see how that may be. If you don’t feed love it simply won’t grow.”

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

heartbreakers are people that associate pain with pleasure. they revel in the agony of others and love watching them suffer endlessly. although love may be felt for one another, or some sort of mutual chemistry may exist, putting the other thru some type of emotional pain seems to bring about a certain demonic, if not sadistic, quality to the person that is doing the damage. funny thing is though, the person that is going through all the pain. all the agony. all the suffering. is actually somewhat enjoying it all. but, there is always hope that the other is gonna eventually give in, or stop, with the torture. that everying will turn out alright. that no more pain. or agony. or suffering. will come about. but.. it turns out to be hopeless. because that is the form of pleasure that excites the soul. pain for pleasure. what is that? it lets us know we’re alive. no pain.. no love.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

not everything i have achieved has been given to me with such ease. i have had to work for it in some form. either by physical labor or emotional investment. either way.. something has been put in so that something great can be taken out. and.. i do things because i want to. not because i have to. i never do things for others because i feel that it is a duty. it’s not. i do things because i’m a genuine individual that is living life to the fullest while keeping in mind the dreams that i would like to personally accomplish, while making sure others around me are happy.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

what have you got to lose? nothing. live life knowing that you accomplished the feats that you want to take on. don’t say no. don’t look away from danger and death itself. always go to bed satisfied knowing that you achieved your goals and desires.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

AN UNDERSTANDING OF THIS THING CALLED LOVE

“if you love it, set it free. if it comes back.. it was meant to be.”

that holds true to the very end. people will always end up doing whatever it is that they have their hearts set on. regardless of anything, at some point or another, they will go out and seek what makes them happy. i think i repeated it, whatever. if you think about it, though, if you truly “love” someone, i don’t think you’d care about anything else besides their happiness. and besides, i’m sure if you love someone, they must love you back play with that sentence! i read somewhere.. love is letting the other grow into its beauty in their own environment. attachment is taking that beauty and possessing it because you like it [for yourself]. by taking that beauty and calling it your own.. you’re causing harm to the object (i hate to use the word object) because it is not gonna be able to thrive in a strange environment. you’re hurting its chances of survival by taking it away from the very place that it was meant to be. but, if you love it, you will let it grow into the beautiful object that it is and when that happens.. so many beautiful possibilities begin to transpire. meaning.. anything can happen! love is being able to go alone into the wilderness and have a certain peaceful-ness within you where you know that what you seek at the end of it all will be there. this lets you enjoy the time spent in the wilderness allowing you to contemplate whatever it is that you want. when you’re attached to someone not in love you worry too much about what comes at the end of the rainbow and it doesn’t allow you to take in all the beautiful-ness that surrounds you as you journey through whatever it is that you’re dealing with. now, these are all vague and generalized assumptions about love [and attachment], but.. love is something not easily explained nor understood. so.. it’s better than that stupid birds & the bees story that we’re spoon-fed as children by our authority figures.

if you think about it..

say someone loves you. you haven’t seen them or heard anything from them in god-knows-how-many days. attachment leaves you feeling unpleasant, uneasy, unhappy, unsatisfied, sad, lonely, and the list of negativities are endless. you’re always wondering what the other is doing. if they’re being unfaithful to your love, or you’re maybe envying all the fun they’re having WITHOUT YOU. i think that’s attachment.

when the person loves you or you love them unconditionally, you’re at ease. yes, it’s granted, you will probably miss them and their company. it’s human nature to miss those that we love [a sibling on vacation, a bestfriend gone for the summer, whatever]. but.. when we miss those that we love, we understand that there’s a reason for their absence. maybe they’re busy, working a lot, tired, thriving in their own environment, trying to handle their business, but, whatever the reason is.. it’s understandable. they love you supposedly and, if you really think about it, why would someone that loves you do something to jeopardize whatever exists between the two of you? they wouldn’t. love doesn’t fight. love.. tries to understand and it gives you that energy to live and be happy knowing that the other person is gonna be there for you at the end of it. when someone loves you, they TRY not to hurt you. they will actually do their best to make sure that YOU’RE happy. some people are more experienced with love while others are still playing with it. but either way.. love tries to make the other happy in all circumstances. and that even includes sacrificing personal happiness to make sure that the other is happy, no matter what. so.. i think it’s safe to assume.. love does what it wants. but.. when genuine love is present.. it’s all good. in the end.. they still love you. and, you know what? getting rid of love, or losing love, or falling out of love, is a feat not easily accomplished. it’s damn near impossible.

Christmas 2005 in Philly

and months later…. after moving back in with my family…………………….

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Written December 28, 2005

past couple of days/weeks have been memorable. i don’t know when the last time everyone spent time like that. first few days kinda sucked [in a way]. after that.. things got better. ate so much food that i don’t really get a change of eating back at home. it felt like the good ol’ days [back in miami]. i miss those days. waking up at my aun’ts house and smelling that food that’s typical of us to eat. i miss kickin it with my cousin [and his friends]. it’s not something i should be taking for granted. but i sure did back in the day. childish days just riding our bikes thru puddles and gettin all dirty. who gave a fuck though. definitely not me nor my cousin. i wish my gramma dora from miami was there.. people’s attitude from miami is totally different than that of those from california. californians are mellow in comparison to those from miami. miami gives you life. it gives you fire. california just gives you sophistication. it gives you thta business attitude. it doesn’t nurture your playful side. you’re always sso serious over there. i don’t understand it. maybe it’s because of all those towering business buildings. in miami you have the beaches, the people, the parties, the club, south beach. in california, you got intel, amd, mercado, and starbucks. totally different than that of miami. schools are different. california seems to be mmore oriented. definately can focuse here. if yu’re not from the area. if you are, you’re more than likely a spoiled brat. miami doesn’t give you that personality. if you have that, it’s because you just m oved to miami with your parents because you got money from a big company from some other state.

overall, i enjoy being with my family. i have more appreciation for the things they do. i see them in a different light and i hope that later on in the future i’m able to fulfill those things i said i would wanna do. my cousin is gonna be come a pilot. for the airforce. maybe we can travel the world with efamily. iplan on being rich. someway or another, it’ll happen. it’s a dream. and i hope it comes true.

i also noticed something different with religon. i did a little prayer at this enormous church and for some strange reason i ddin’t think twice about it. nexxt day, well.. let’s just say that we got rewarded in a great way. i can’t believe it ever happened. i’l be honest, i have a different view about that sorta type fo thin. maybe i’ll beome involved [when i'm ready.]. iono though.

overall.. it’s been great!

Watch Company of America

Saturday, May 24, 2008 @ 10:25am

I work for an American watch company. Not only do I work for a successful company, but it is still in its infancy. While it’s a baby, though, the clients they serve and have accounts with provide them plenty of wealth. On top of that, it is family owned. It isn’t publicly traded on the stock market and they don’t follow “corporate America” standards and rules. I come to work wearing nice jeans and collared suit-type shirts. I have my own cubical-like desk area with my own personal phone, computer and all those other things that accompany an office. I listen to customers call in every day asking if they can register the warranty on their watches for the next five years. Sometimes I comply, but most of the time I don’t. I follow the policy that they must mail in their warranty with a copy of their receipt. The ones that I’m “nice” with are the ones that supposedly claim that they are blind, bed-ridden or say that the warranty application did not come with the purchase of their watch. If I’m not doing those types of calls, I’m handling some customers that have sent in their watch for repairs. The thing is, though, sometimes their watches are un-repairable. So what ends up happening is that I get on the phone and let them know that it’s not fixable, but that we are more than willing to replace it with a watch of equal or lesser value to that of the watch that was sent in. When not doing any types of phone calls, I’m just cruising the World Wide Web sifting through the loads of misinformation that is out there. Some is believable, some isn’t. The news is a big thing during my down-time. I’m reading whatever catches my eye. Some interesting.. some boring.. but they’re all the same. They describe a world full of trouble and innovation.

I need to mention that although I do work for this watch company, they aren’t the ones that pay my salary. One of their clients pay them to have me there. Long story short, the watch company’s biggest customer was heavily complaining that the customer service department sucks. I won’t get into any details about what made the department whack. But, from what I’ve seen and from the little amount of time that I’ve been working there, there isn’t much to complain about. Why? Because the customers that call in with complaints and questions in reference to the biggest client are quite frankly ridiculous. I’ll get into specifics [about the customers] at some point later on.

The family that runs the watch company is Israeli. Although, I may be wrong! Their family history is diverse and a bit complicated. The CEO is the youngest son; he’s about 30-something. His father is the Senior Consultant; he gave his son the company. The older sister is the Vice-President of something and the CEO’s wife is in charge of the customer service department; she’s my main boss. I believe that another one of their sisters works there, but I’m not entirely sure of that information. Oh well, the point is, this family runs a successful watch company that competes with Rolex and the like. They don’t play games. By looking at their End of the Year photos they know how to have fun, too. Did I mention that the owner drives a Bentley? It’s fairly new, but his tires are almost balding. His solution.. buy a new FJ cruiser. His wife drives a fairly new Lexus SUV and his father drives a mid-nineties Lexus SUV, as well.

I got this job from the good graces of my future-wife’s mother. She happens to be good friends with the owners and she takes care of the owners’ Mother. She’s a blessing. An angel in disguise! She’s always there whenever we need something. Food, love and spirituality. She’s a whole ‘nother persona to talk about and I want to dedicate as much as possible to her. But right now is not the time.

My beautiful girlfriend works at a private hospital that is funded privately (whatever that means). She works in the Billing & Collection department. She sits at her desk and while she’s playing her Snood or doing her homework (similar to Bust-A-Move on Playstation), she’s on the phone talking to people and insurance companies that owe the hospital money. But, not only is she working full-time at this hospital, she just went back to school. She enrolled at a nearby community college to further her career and life. She’s only twenty years old, by the way. I must mention, too, that her boss, the owner of the hospital, is divorced from one of the sisters that run the watch company. The divorce was terrible. From what I know, he cheated on her.

The people I work with are fantastic. I am learning a great deal from them and by the looks of things, we’re all in our early twenties. I finally work in a setting where I get to sit down and stare at a computer! I know, I know, a lot of people do not like desk jobs. But, you don’t know what I was doing before, and, I’ll be honest, I loved my job in the past, but it got a little too stressful for the little pay they gave me. It was too much work! Starbucks was fun, but it wore you down and the countless amounts of unnecessary BS was not worth the headaches, stress, and no amount of pot in the world could cure the anxiety that was caused by drinking coffee and slangin’ it all day to drug addicted souls.

There are many things that I wish to accomplish, but for right now I’ll just take it one day at a time, but my philosophy is… CARPE DIEM!

Crossroads

I feel like I’m at a crossroads. There are many times and places that I wish I was at right now. There are a lot of things that I want to do with my life, too. And.. the funny thing is.. I know i can excel at anything I put my mind to. The question is though.. what do i like to do? And what will feed my hunger and desire to want to keep doing it day after day for a good chunk of my life? I know I’ll have some sort of career change in life, but.. in all honesty… i’d prefer not to. I want to find something I love to do and die doing it. I want die knowing that I was one of the best, if not THE Best, at whatever it is I was doing for my whole life.

 

I just want something that I will make me feel accomplished and allow me to fall asleep at nite with a happy and satisfied heart.

 

I’m stuck with deciding to continue my psychology education.. or.. I could further myself in the writing arena. Both those areas are satisfying. I enjoy psychology and the role it has on the human being.. it fascinates me. In the end.. we’re just smart animals. It could lead me to great and extraordinary things. Then there’s also writing. I could end being an editor of a magazine/newspaper. I could be given the opportunity pen my thoughts on paper and have others read and remember them for the rest of their lives. I could create poetry and masterpieces that [I wish] could be on par with Aristotle and Socrates. The choices are endless and those are the two passions in my life. I just don’t know what I want to do.

 

I live in a society that expects the person to make their decisions quick and correct. Society AND LIFE do not allow for meandering thoughts at the early stages of your life. This society places emphasis on the good life at an old age. Considering that my time has passed for me to become a self-made millionaire by the time I become 25.. I have to think realistically and tell myself that I must hurry up and make up my mind with what I want to do with my life. There are many other pressures that are making think twice with what I must decide. I have others that are depending on me and others that WILL be depending on me to provide for them and to be the best I can be so that they too can have the good life, just like my parents provided for me.. at their cost.

 

So many choices… so little time.

 

What’s a man to do when he wants the whole world but has to succumb to reality?

a new beginning

i created this new forum as a medium to filter out my thoughts that i keep piled up in my head. as i try new beginnings and live my life differently than what i am accustomed to, i look at myself in disbelief at the life that i’m living. this is just a small tidbit into my ever-expanding universe and i would like to preface everything i will write here with a simple, “these are my thoughts, concerns and opinions.”

i’m a very respectful man and i live life to the fullest. i make smart decisions that borderline on crazy, but i always over-analyse everything. i try my hardest to live life carefree and simple, but as i grow older and undertake many other endevours, i now realize that no matter how simple you try and make, life will always get tough. i learned to have a tough skin in dire situations and sometimes it gets me into trouble.

i may be depicted as a jerk and an asshole, but, quite frankly, i don’t care. this medium of online blogging is whatever it is. the difference between this online stuff and face-to-face conversation is the fact that we don’t see each others’ faces and we can sit there and talk to the screen with any opinions we may have. that’s fine.

i said this before, and i’ll say this again.. until the day i die..

My words are used to cause revolutions, to foster free-spirited thinking, and to further the desire of freedom.

Thank you.